High Tension

テンションが高い。

Translation: Tension is high.

The Japanese translation, which means a highness of spirits, is almost completely opposite of the English meaning . My "High Tension" title however represents the English meaning, mostly due to the high amount of stress/worry in my life right now.

For whatever reason I was suddenly overcome with lethargy today while passing out flyers for work. It must have been caused by a combination of reasons:

-the shitty ICE BOX weather
-girl drama
-the 1% uncertainty of whether or not I'll be able to take my next vacation or not in February
-the realization of my reality that I was passing out flyers for work


It almost prompted me to do something drastic like:

-Buying a new expensive toy
-Cutting my hair and trying a completely different style
-Quitting my job


However, as the night progressed I simmered down and returned to Neutral Mode.

Notwithstanding, I wish I was still in high tension mode so I could have an excuse to do something drastic like the above.


~Anthans